heh been really tied down this week with rc and tests... how to blog sia. but anyways, had quite a fun time the past few days. friday was x- country at macritchie reservoir. the same place back in sec1. woke up late and arrived late, lol but lucky not too late. went with the 1st team to clear the area before the race began... ran the whole 5km route with hidayat and abhishek. kamariah got attacked by monkeys cos they spotted her holding the bread miss tai gave. hahas and now we know that abhishek is afraid of monkeys. was super hectic back at base mann... the casualties jus kept coming and coming one after another at though it was some war zone. total recorded was about 40+ casualties. leg was trembling like mad and sweat kept dripping onto all the equipment and stuff until i bet the first aids were all contaminated. hahas. checkpoint 21 requested stretcher squad and had to go assist... wahh when i reached there i so wanted to be the next casualty can. was out of breath of the first time. so things went on and on like that the whole time lar yea you get the picture. event ended about 3hours later with none other than miss lim's looonnng speech. well she thanked the parents, teachers, and all the helpers except the first aiders. how nice. -______-
mr ow gave austin, hidayat and me a lift back to school in his van cause we needed to transport the stretchers back. nice van he got there. got a nice comfy sofa inside lol. went with hidayat to BK at holland to have lunch with sarah, brandon, wenfang and mr firhad. mr firhads damn joker lar. he was imitating spongebob and the other characters. hah. was surprised when he asked me about michelle! hmm wonder what miss tai have been telling him. bleahh
came home for a short nap before catching the wedding date in the evening with mich. heard the ticket prices are gonna be increased to $9.50!!! uurrgghhh... waddeheck. but nvm, im a supporter of piracy =) went to sentosa after that for chalet with the aspire hub people. realised its quite a nice place at nite especially when youre staying over so you can jus take ur time to roam about the beaches and all instead of rushing to catch the last bus home. the chalet was like... er the size of my room? with 12 guys all squeezing into it. haha the air con wasnt working so we had to open the windows. lucky no mosquito bites. spend the nite watching shutter and the rest continued with the ps 2 while i went to sleep. was damn farnie lar... everyone was screaming and scaring one another. haha yah GUYS.
*yawnz* just got back and its already 3pm... gonna get back some sleep before continuing with studies. seems like life can really get enjoyable if we know proper time management. =)

sigh

sometimes when all is going well, certain things just turn around and stab you in the back with reasons, unexplainable. thats just simply whats happening. somehow the feeling's just like a tsunami sweeping through a town... strikes without a warning, everyones affected one way or another, leaving you in a dilemma and asking yourself what have we done to deserve this. being a leader, often its the ones you lead who suffer when a mistake is made and not yourself. depressed, yet not allowing our emotions to affect our duties because of the one thing called Professionalism. something instead... only time can heal.

its been a year since Blen's death anniversary. many might have forgotten, but not me for sure. what a small world it is, his dad was my boat instructor during the training days. being taught by him brought back memories of how Blen used to train me with all the PA equipment... but i know, you're up there now enjoying yourself dude. whatever it is, you've still been in our hearts all these while.

childhood memories relived

with soccer matches on these few days... seriously, how much sleep can you get? haha. tiring week it was, but guess thats the way things are gonna become huh? the amazing race thingy on tuesday and wednesday turned out to be quite a fun one. better still, i got to take back sec1E as marshal! the class i took for orientation. the annoying yet adorable little ones. haha. =) the bus to the botanic gardens passed by my kindergarten and for the very first time in many years i got a chance to see my kindergarten, located along holland drive. its buildings very much look the same, except for its colour fadding off. thoughts just flowed through my mind bout the many good memories i had right there. locking everyone out of the com lab and getting a huge punishment for that, imagining to dig for dinosaur bones in the sand pit, fighting over the spaceship in the playground, the annual parents' concert that we all dread, having the whole school to celebrate your birthday with you... hah, yes the good old days when we cared about nothing else but PLAY. sadly as we all grow up, many of us have lost that innocence and began paying more attention to what society wants us to be, and not who we really desire to become... remember the days when we all wanted to be firefighters, policemen, docters, teachers... what happened to those dreams?

mann... responsibility and commitment has definitely grown much more for me now. camps, ltc, syf, ulp, linkamania are just some of the events coming my way. not forgetting school is reopening and studies now isnt going to be as simple and easy as secondary school was. sometimes, life isnt as sweet as it sounds. the harsh reality of our parents aging quicker and not being able to provide for us in time to come still well remains, though many of us would pretty much try to avoid the thought. its sad to know how hard parents are willinging to work just to give their children the very best they can provide... but well, parents will be parents. heh, and its time i start recognising that and study hard in return...

appeals

started off the morning with a bad tummyache and diarrhea, therefore had to turn down the gang in joining to help out with the sec1 amazing race programme. my sincere apologies. went down to get my eye check up done in the afternoon and then to register for the powerboat theory exams at sp. that really burnt a huge hole in my wallet =(. at the same time accompanied kevin to do his appeals at the various polys. there, i met afew others whom i've havent seen for some time. had a good chat and caught up with the activities some of us have been up to since last christmas. interesting indeed haha. what can i say, but all the best with your appeals guys. fred not, we'll keep the prayers coming in yea. =) just finished catching the oscar awards on tv. somehow it give me an urge to go rent some movies later on in the day. yeah, i shall do just that. haha.

nothing much for today, just waiting for you to return home really... its late and i should be turning in soon. the amazing race's still on later and i better go for it before i get nagged at. haha

speechless

postings were out last friday and once again my prayers are answered. AMEN! so its just a matter of time before its back to school, yeah business studies that is. for the first time im happy to annouce that im excited about getting my butt back in the books! haha. being involved with too many rc activities lately can start to become quite a chore. national fdcomp yesterday went well. besides viewing the competitiveness put up by the various squads, it felt great seeing those familiar faces from ulp and evic 3yrs ago. its good to know everyone's doing well and ever so supportive of their units. fairfield did put up a great fight really. unfortunately, well... there were others that did better. nonetheless, im proud of you people. for taking up this challenging despite knowing it wouldn't be easy on yourself from the very beginning. afterall, its the process that counts not the results. you guys did your best, and thats all that matters. fdcomp 07, we shall look forward to now. =)

attended the evening mass at holy cross today. made thanksgiving for the results and posting, but more importantly to pray for all those doing their service learning overseas at this moment. mann, it's just been afew hours and it already feels as though weeks have passed since she left... i miss you.

3 days to the big day

its been awhile since i've left the tv in my room switched off and listened to the soothing and mind easing music of five for fighting on my laptop. yeah, the heavy and bulky laptop that i've been using since the old one crashed. its about time i get a new one for school. posting will be out this friday. hmm, might consider sourcing around for notebooks next week. anyone interested? anyways... listening to all the music only ends me up in a reflective mood. thought about certain issues, and with a little prayer, i can now only wait and look forward for brighter signs to appear.

spent the day having the last fdcomp training at fairfield. it's been the fourth year for me already. just amazing how fast time flies. what else can i say besides myself being proud of the squad. yes, my squad. for surviving through all the tough trainings, the efforts put in, the bond we share, and the fun times we'll never forget... it has been a big achievement for everyone. i know you guys will perform simply wonderful on saturday and none of us will be let down. as the saying would go, ' i was never a champion... but i did serve and train with a squad of champions.' have faith in yourself and in the men on your left and right. =)

attended ash wednesday mass at holy cross in the evening and the church was almost packed by the time i arrived. standing throughout the service when having already done quite a number of pumpings before that was er... ouch. but oh wells. cheer up my A level seniors! all of us have been praying hard for you guys, so do believe that God has his plans for you! despite it not looking nice at this moment but eventually, we will understand when the outcome draws closer. =)

a tragedy

how easy it is to point out another's mistakes but yet, difficult identifying one's own. sighh, its saddening to see how selfish humans can become. im tired, disappointed, exhausted and on the verge of retreating.

its about time i realise... i'm here to deliver standards, not to please you guys.

Lord, why this test have you put before me?

back from oa camp

so much had happened within this short period of time since the last entry. for a start, i finally completed my PPCDL course last weekend! travelling down to punggol marina early in the mornings, having to sit through 4hours of theory lessons when my brain's attention span jammed at 30min since last november and then heading out to the seas in the afternoon for practical lessons while having a tan much worst than you could ask for was... well, tiring but yet a whole great lesson and experience gained. exam's gonna be in 2-3weeks time. and then once done, my dudes and i will be out fishing and wakeboarding yeah! link training at fmps just gets better and better each time. as much as i was able to share my skills from first aid to evac, outdoor activities and footdrill with the kids and teachers, so did the lessons learnt from them especially the kids prove to be valuable. for the various people who have helped me each time - denise, nick and poh huat sir... much thanks to you guys! you finally understood how tough it was eh? haha. but seriously, you'll get the hang of it after some time =). mann, its a sad thing i've to leave this special link unit behind very soon due to school commencing. how often will i get to see them again, i do not know. one thing's for sure, i'll keep you guys in my prayers and best of luck for your upcoming CA exams!

ah yes, speaking of school, here were my choices submitted - 1st business studies np. 2nd business admin sp. 3rd, 4th, 5th tourism & resort management np sp and tp. 6th business management nyp. 7th, 8th business IT np and sp. 9th, 10th IT np and sp. 11th law and management. 12th biomedical engineering. like you can see, the last choice doesnt have any relation with any of the rest. haha, but oh wells. am i going to see any of you there? =)

returned home from oa camp yesterday dead shagged but yet with a sense of accomplishment. being a cadet for 4years and then suddenly an instructor for less than a month sure has it's culture shock... but hah, im gonna like this. hiked at bukit timah nature reserve for the 2nd time which eventually became a warning signal of how much stamina i've lost for slacking the past month. its time i head back to the gym! >.< in conclusion, oa camp was no doubt fun, trying out and learning many new things from law sir, chee yong sir and the other instructors... stuff such as errecting the very cleverly bamboo made flagpole, digging a hole in the field and cooking a tasty baked chicken seasoned with nothing else but mud, absailing down the walls of the campsite building... and of course, the many unforgettable activities we did when the cadets were fast asleep and can never imagine us instructors doing...

hahaha. but well, we did. =)

one hell of a friday

it was one hell of a week and i'm glad the tension's all over now. fdcomp camp back at fairfield was hmm... rather fun, but yet disappointing to some extent. the midnight captain's ball, basketball match and so on sure brought back much of the good memories from the past. what could have been better than having kevin, enshao, yuan hao and the rest all coming back. thanks guys! =) workshop on sat afternoon was tiring.. with no sleep the night before, how fun can it get? hah, some would have noticed my horribly huge eyebags though. hmm, something struck my heart while watching my own cadets in the footdrill module drilling under the hot sun. the tired and seriously exhausted look on their face left a huge impact on me. upon realising they have already been drilling since the evening before and by the end of the module, they had completed 10hours of drill just within two days. candice, irsyad and issac, you guys survived and you've made me so proud of you three! thats my fairsian cadets! =) haha. alright, so on to the issue of O's results... i did pretty ok lah i guess. considering the fact i have no interest in jc. results were worst than wad i hoped for. but looking on the bright side, i was still eligible for all the courses of my preferred choices. afterall, my parents and she are happy for me so yeah, im glad. praise God!

so next question, what do i wana be in the near future? mann... its about time i make a decision.

at this time and pace, people and things are evolving and moving faster than ever. so much so, that its become a pity how people can allow somethings so beautiful to pass, but yet not take a moment to marvel at their magnificence. something huge caught my attention while i was standing at the entrance of jurong point today, waiting for the red man to turn green. for the very first time, up in the sky i saw a full arc rainbow, giving the sky a mixed colour of blue and purple. what else could i have done then to take the time in admiring another of God's wonderful creation til it disappeared completely awhile after. well, not was it after i took out my camera and focused it to the skies that people began to look up and had a share in my excitement...








not for me rushing home for dinner and i'll be off in search for the ends of the rainbow =). but hmm... in a matter of hours, my life will be changed for either the better or worst. could the rainbow really be a promise from God that all will be well tomorrow? sigh, i sure hope so...

release of results!

i decided to do abit more walking nowadays getting from one place to another since the transportation fares have increased from student to adult :( afterall, no harm right, good exercise anyway. but then again, such long walks would only just wana make me think and talk to myself more along the way. several issues have been all caught up in my mind. so its been confirmed, the O level results will be released this friday, and somehow im afraid. im afraid of getting my parents and myself disappointed... im afraid of not being able to get into the course i want... im afraid of failure. urgh, this just sucks. i just want friday to quickly come and all the anxiety to be rid of. i have my faith in the Lord and i know that he has set a path set for me to lead, but somehow i do hope it'll be one i can be happy with. please pray for us all ok? :)

the last link training with the primary school turned out to be surprisingly much better than the first. its amazing to observe how fast children are able to pick up everything you teach them, be it positive or negative. and somehow, the only way to get them in doing things faster is to excite them with games that we can play only when they have finished a certain task. given more observation, i realise much of the negative behaviour teenagers nowadays possess actually do very much begin from young. the sad thing is because these mistakes were not corrected at the young age, children continue living with them not knowing what is right and wrong, resulting in a bad habit that is difficult to change later in life. i not stupid too the movie sums it all up, with the fact that people of all ages, do need love and attention!

being a VI for sometime has provided me an eye opener to realise somethings. not only is the exposure there for me to learn to relate to many different age groups of people. from children to teens, to young adults and those high up there... but the truth is that i was never passionate about redcross... all along, its only been my cadets and the people whom i lead that im passionate about. i want the best for them, and i've come to realise how important HOPE actually is. without it, life will never go on... with it, we will fight for anything we want til we see the light and really... i hope the best for us all on friday :\

happy lunar new year

never realised its been such a long time since the last post. well, the lack of entries can only be explained by the new hectic and tiring schedule of mine as a fresh VI. as though working in the unit is not taxing enough, theres now hq and the primary school programmes to help out with. but looking on the bright side, they do offer great learning experiences. for a start, the rainy season is clearing up. and thats just great! its not fun waking up in the morning late and having to iron your clothes. worst still, wearing damp underwear when theres none that are dry. *glups*

the new blog layout was a result of me having nothing better to do on this chinese new year's eve. thanks to my little cousin (she forced me to say this) we got it up rather fast. kids these days are just getting smarter at such things than we 'adults' haha.

as mentioned previously, work with the primary has began. and its been interesting for me to be able to interact with many of the children over the past couple of weeks. seeing them so carefree and cheerful all the time makes me wonder how easily we young adults have lost that sense of innocence and how big a change puberty can cause in us. no doubt was it one hell of an experience at first, shouting ur head off just to get their attention and only afew minutes later do you see them showing some response, and how frank they can get by telling you off 'this is boring, i don't want to play anymore!' hmm.. sounds familiar? hurting though. but oh well, kids will be kids. its a totally different approach towards these young teenagers that has to be adopted, unlike what it is to teach the juniors of my generation, these kids truely need lotsa love, patience and understanding but yet to be firm at times. and despite having them piss you off so badly that you just feel like strangling them, you cant deny the fact they bring much joy and happiness into our lives when you begin to be more involved in their lives and they in yours. i want kids of my own! =)

in a few hours time its going to be chinese new year! as much as i am excited about collecting those ang pows, so i am about all the visiting and the yummy food! wahaha. someone please remind me to return to the gym after tuesday! =)

so ok, heres wishing all a happy, blessed and prosperous chinese new year! woof woof!

first entry for the year

what a 2005 year it has been, with so many things that had happened, both good and bad. the sweet memories i would sure like to re-live and the negative ones i wouldn't want to recall. whatever they were, they have made me the very person i am presently.

so, a start of a new year with a fresh new beginning. my resolution of the year - to spend more time in church and with my family, not forgetting to have a good and healthy balance of all my activities. the rest, well that special some one would already know. hahaha =) would really want to apologise to all those who have sent me your new year greetings over the sms and having not replied you. like you know the network this morning was seriously screwed and i was totally frustrated with all my smses not getting through. nonetheless, thank you very much for keeping such as loser like me in mind. haha.

my visiting relatives have returned to Shanghai today and the once ' temporary mad refugee camp' which my noisy cousins running about and setting my hamsters free everywhere in the house has returned to its quiet and boring atmosphere. if you little ones are reading this, just wana say a big thank you for the past week, sharing with us the Christmas and new year joy and happiness and bringing us much laughter, though you gave me much shit clearing up the mess after you. but what can i say, your mom gave me a 150bucks angbao before you guys left. hahaha. i'll miss you guys. come back for Chinese New Year ok! =)

ok, finally after one and a half weeks of procrastination, i got my hq proposals and reports completed! *CLAPCLAP* it was hell when my laptop crashed a couple of days ago and i had to redo everything. what a nice new year's gift to have. guess i will be going down to samsung service centre at PS tomorrow to get it fixed. hope the repairs wont be adding up to something near $150? *glups*

school's reopening the day after tomorrow! hope the students will be equally excited and happy about it as i am. hahaha im not trying to be sarcastic here, but i think not studying for the past 2 months was indeed boring. agreed? hahas.

well once again, may you all out there have a wonderful and prosperous 2006!

chill.

the giving tree

for the first time, i had an opportunity to do some real voluntary work. was on duty a couple of days back at the giving tree volunteers' fair at tampines. i had no idea what was in stored for us until i actually reached there. in front of me was this really MASSIVE pile of soft toys waiting to be sorted out and packed. and it didnt stop there. many more continued coming to donate their stuff toys to us. and then i realised my job was to sort out of the toys and not presentation on the booth as i thought it would be. a simple and easy job quick became tiring and dull as the pile never seemed to lessened. from poohs to hello kittys, you name it, we had it. wah, i've never seen that many stuffed toy before in my entire life.

the toys were basically for the children victims of the tsunami, and it was important we sorted out the toys properly according to their condition and material so that the children will only recieve the good stuff and not make them feel worthless by giving them the dirtied and spoilt ones too. so there i was being santa's worker, inspecting every toy before it goes into the right bag. thoughts ran through my tired mind as i asked myself was it really worth my valuable time that i could have spent on a good rest instead, doing such work and not getting anything in return?

well, it was a yes. and in fact, isn't going down for trainings and teaching the cadets all considered voluntary work too? afterall, we dont get anything in return, except in hope that we'll be able to see our young ones growing and excelling in the right path of life. though i do have many limitations, i was glad to know my little efforts, in this case packing the toys, could mean a huge blessing to others. eventually with a little over-time, the three of us there did managed to get the pile sorted out and packed. PHEW, it was a big achievement alright. it felt good to see the pleasant side of singaporeans for a change, as compared to those you see running when the mrt approaches, budgging their way through the opened mrt door and literally rushing in for a seat. sad huh. there were quite a number that actually bought these brand new toys just to donate them. what nice people haha =) so, as the slogan goes, ' it doesnt take much effort to be a volunteer, just do what you normally do!' =) ah hah! the giving tree ends only on the 31st dec. so do bring down your stuffed toys if you wish to have them donated!

chill!

the time of the year

wines, feasting, carolings and much time spent time with loved ones... was just to sum up this merry little Christmas of mine. its such a big difference of how the materialistic world and the church potrays Christmas to be. seeing the beautiful lights and deco along town no doubt gets us all hyped up in the mood to just spend more money. who can really resist especially when theres a Christmas sale going on almost everywhere? well, not to say that is wrong. but seriously how many of us actually do take this time to reflect and think about the true meaning of Christmas? that of Christ's presence coming into our little hearts and for us to share this love with those around us. i guessed Christmas only became meaningful and fulfilling to me when i decided to give and share unselfishly.

the fmssrcy Christmas cum seniors' reunion held at sentosa last friday that we planned for so long and sacrificed much of our personal time resulted in a sweet success. the committee must agree with me when i say that though it was tiring planning and doing the marketing, we all had a great time crapping around, laughing, catching up with stuff that we missed since the start of VIP, and of course just having simple clean fun together! indeed God was watching over us the whole while and answering our prayers when the weather didnt seem to good on the day itself. yeah, we all know it poured extremely heavily some time after we left the place, turning out to be exactly what poh huat sir told us the evening before. the food was sufficient, the attendence was rather good, the weather was just perfect, everyone had a great time, so what more can i say? PRAISE GOD! =) Christmas eve's dinner that evening was spent at a relative's place. roasted turkey, ham, chicken, duck, were just some of the food laid out on the table. after that meal i promised myself to eat only salad and vegetables for the next one week. hahaha. a pity i was too tired to attend the midnight Christmas mass at holy cross, but nonetheless the morning mass with my family at st francis the next day was equally good. that night was another bbq dinner. the THIRD one in two weeks. hahaha, thanks to VIP i was forced in learning to start up a bbq fire in just 15mins. useful skill you know =).

ok, so now my throat's feeling a little sore from all the bbq and my mom has already stocked up the fridge with lotsa lettuce for the family. my house has turned into a refugee camp with my relatives from shanghai staying over. haha rather messy place, but gives the feeling of a warm and cosy home. joanne and i will be down at tampines mall for duty at the volunteers exhibition fair. so do come and give us your support if you have nothing better to do! hahas. Christmas last for 12 days if you don't know. so well, do have a happy Christmas and a blessed year ahead! =)

God bless!

finally home

its been some time since the last entry and, well for a start the KL trip was good, thinking about the fact i stayed away from any form of work that couple of days and had a good rest. didn't do much shopping there as the prices of stuff weren't very much different from here. instead, it was clubbing and pubbing every night. quite an effort getting the first bottle down my throat, but after that, the rest wasn't a problem haha. first time experience lah, so what much can i say about it. it was fun though.

anyways, back to reality... returned from the vi camp yesterday and til now my whole body's still aching away badly. the rescue mission at ubin on day2 was physically torturing while being the I/C on day3 was mentally challenging. but hey, we managed to overcome and survived through it. and thats just a small part of what each of us brought home with us. though it was tough, no doubt was it great fun! having the jokers around sure added much fun and laughter into the camp til a point many described the camp as a 'chalet' haha. much of the activities gave us opportunity to forge closer bonds with one another. and so, the statement 'people only bond when they suffer together', proves to be true. there were times however, that got me very disappointed with myself and my fellow fairsians. but nonetheless, we're all still learning and i wish the best for us all. now that the camp has ended and most of us will be on the way to becoming full pledged VIs, its hard to decide on a unit to attach ourselves to. fairfield or tk? hmmm... camp report and fdcom proposal needs to be up soon! urgh, not forgetting christmas is just afew days away...

leaving for KL

VIP has started and im only going to get busier and busier as the camp draws nearer. yesterday's first contact session went rather well. but it felt even better to once again be able to meet and catch up with my ULP batchmates of 04/02 :)

anyways, my lucky parents left for Rome yesterday with their free airtickets! guess they'll be enjoying themselves there for sometime as i heard my mom saying she always wanted to visit Europe before she gets old and have trouble walking. hahas. i'll be in Rome with them now if not for VIP... but oh wells. my bro and i are taking a short trip to KL tomorrow and will only be back on thursday. nothing much in mind, except to visit our dear relatives and do some christmas shopping (if i can find anything cheap there of course. hehe) so yeah, if theres anything important you can still reach me on my mobile. take care!

and oh, vip charlie mates... thanks for helping out with my workload, i owe you guys one :)

chill.

the joy of childhood

i decided to take a stroll to jurong point after dinner just now to rent some vcds and i must say that on the way there and back i actually felt cold for the first time! what is happening to the weather these few days??

well i haven't been doing anything productive this week and my parents are begining to nag about that. did a couple of work outs, swims, sun tanning, checking out books at kino, window shopping with boren and of course going down for trainings. finally, im done with packing and cleaning up my room, except for getting the few furniture i want from ikea. my dad's been asking me to go sign up for courses to acquire some new skills during the holidays and not rot at home. submitted my application for my powerboating license and yeah, guess i wouldn't mind anything else with company around. anyone has anything in mind? =) boren and i are gonna try out baking cookies and brownies next week! if they turn out good... well you know what you can expect for christmas this year. hahaha, but dont worry we'll make sure they're up to standard before letting you guys to try them! =)

hmmm... just a couple of weeks back, a group of us decided to undergo a project to help out our primary school red cross link unit. i've been thinking alot about this lately, about the time, commitment, training, etc towards it. i believe not only will assisting them be beneficial to both units, fmssrcy and fmps rcy link, but also to us as individuals. after having been trained as a cadet and training cadets in the teenage age for 2-4 years, i have to admit it'll be a challenge for us now to switch our ways in teaching these little ones. methods such as tekaning, corporal punishment, scolding and many other high expectations will no longer be useful towards these kids. but still, if theres a will, theres a way. though not an easy task this project will be, i took it up believing that as much as i'll be able to share my knowledge and passion for redcross with these kids, so too will i be able to learn and experience from these little ones about our long lost worry-free and joyful childhood we all once had but lost as soon as growing up took place.

and the party begins

WOAH. Os are gone just like that. hallelujah! wahaha.

but frankly you know, its not easy changing from the lifestyle i used to had. mug mug mug. and now its slack slack slack. hah. everyone may be having fun right now. but you gotta admit it when i say things will end up getting extremely boring very soon. hahas. and i am starting to feel the boredom already. i hope it wont come a point when i have to follow my mom for facial or yoga sessions because im literally dying from boredom at home! well for a start, i've been doing serious packing and cleaning up of my room. HAH. and i never realised it can be so exhausting! emptied out tonns of trash and worksheets that had been piling up since sec1. and awww... i can finally breathe now in my clean and dust-free room :) gonna look for some paint and furniture at ikea to do up my room during the next couple of days. hehe. the weather has been particularly cool these days. perfect for sleeping! but nolah. thats bad cause im really waiting for the sun to come out so i can go for my swim! and yes, footdrill training is only effective when theres a hot sun! hahas. but honestly i like the weather the way it is now. will it ever snow here? :)

LAST PAPER

was wondering how my bottle of facial soap ran out so fast within a week and why my bathroom floor was always so soapy. and today i found out thats cause the bottle had a hole in it! urghh. thinking of that, questions came to my mind. what is the rate at which the soap leaks out of its bottle? how is the soap able to leak out of its bottle? why is the soap soapy? amaths, physics, chem... uurgghh! yesh, that were the only things my whole mind was filled with for the past 2 weeks >.<

but thank God, everythings over now... 'SIGH'. somehow i really want to go somewhere to scream, cry and let everything out. all thats been inside of me. the stress, anger, frustation, tiredness.. haha, okay. i shall not get too emotional here. today's the last paper - history. for a start, well maybe i don't really hold very high expectations for myself when it comes to studies. i think most importantly was that i did do my best, and theres nothing to regret. and im sure thats what my parents would ask of me. so... i can say im rather pleased with the papers so far (:

yeah, i've finally decided what i'm gonna do after the papers. hahas. no, im not going out to wreck havoc. but im just going to be a good boy and go home to pack my room, get rid of all the books! (or maybe i shouldnt incase i retain. TOUCH WOOD. i sure hope not. hahahas ) then i'll go to church to give thanks for all thats happened during the past two weeks, and then its off to chill with my buds! unfortunately harry potter's all sold out. all alina's fault for buying so many tickets and leaving none for me!!! grrr. WATCH OUT.

just a week to go

thank goodness, the weekends are just what i need right now. spent most of the weekend studying and at church. attended gwen's confirmation mass at holy cross today. though it was pretty long, but then i still thought we should put God above everything else and so, since somethings are more important than studies, i decided to take time off the books and attend the mass. congrats to gwen, brian, marcus, chartel and recardo on receiving the holy spirit! i pray that you guys will use this gift well and continue walking in the way of Christ and to be a light for Him :) so as much as i had a great time there, it also gave me an opportunity to remember and renew the vows i've made for my own confi. praise God!

mann.. 6 papers to go, and its all over, OVER! and then... back to redcross meetings.

SIGH.

smack in the middle of Os

like finally. Os are here! the past few papers have been alright. stress level not yet at his peak as my papers happen to fall on alternate days, so theres more time to study, and the killer papers are only nexk week! i just hope it wont get any worst than it is now. somehow i've been thinking more about what i'm gonna do after the exams instead of concentrating on the papers themselves. heh heh. so... ok, please keep the prayers coming in for us all, especially those taking their As too, you're not forgotten.

best of luck! :)

just helping a friend

a friend of mine (for those of you who know him, its nicholas tang) is in need of some spare cash to pay his bills. he's offering science and maths tuition to lower secondary. anyone interested can contact him at nicholas450@hotmail.com

just a day away to Os... >.<

as you sow, so shall you reap

if you plant honesty, you will reap trust.

if you plant goodness, you will reap friends.

if you plant humility, you will reap greatness.

if you plant perseverance, you will reap victory.

if you plant consideration, you will reap harmony.

if you plant hard work, you will reap success.

if you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation.

if you plant openess, you will reap intimacy.

if you plant patience, you will reap improvements

if you plant faith, you will reap miracles.

another day at essential brew

talk about going to bed early, and theres matches on tonight! or these few days rather. how leh? today's deepavali and thursday's gonna be hari raya. public holiday or not, doesn't seem much of a diff to us muggers. spent the day going for tuition and the rest of it at holland v's essential brew. if you havent been there, well its this really cosy and comfy restaurant with low tables and you have to sit on the floor. not to worry, there are cushions and pillows provided! highly recommended for a late night chill out or pleasurable reading. studying... er, not so much lah. cause once it gets too comfortable you most probably will end up falling asleep and drooling on the nice cushions... just like i did. hahas, nonetheless i did managed to finish reading the whole of twelfth night :)

ok, its to the tv for now before going back to the books! enjoying yourselves or not, i'd still like to wish all out there a happy festive week. do take care and God bless!

chill.

happy halloween

its way past morning and im still feeling high. must be due to the gym session i had earlier. ever since all the studying began, so did the munching. hah, and i have obviously grown fatter. see, thats the bad thing about not going to school. you get to gain the calories and rot at home. urgh, with all the halloween celebrations going on tonight, its a good night to be out partying. unfortunately for the exams, i'll be home for the next 2 weeks without a life. so you non sec4 people out there please spare a thought for me and don't tell me how you're enjoying your holidays alright? hahas, don't forget your turn will be soon. ok, well that also means i should be getting my biological clock adjusted back to proper working form before next monday.

ah yesh, how can i forget. happy 16th birthday to melvin! thought i would forget eh? as promised the harry potter treat's on me after the last paper yah? :)

twits?

got a site from a friend i'd like to share with you guys. hahaha, no offence ok? check it out ;)

http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com/2005/06/20-pose-ideas_28.html

chill.

new toy

ok, due to the many requests to remove the sad video clip, i have finally done that. those who want the video can always get it from me on msn or the mp3 format from boren =) so... nothing much been happening the past few days. well, of course that chelsea trashed real betis 4-0 last tuesday! hah, havent caught such a good match for such a long time. we'll be looking forward to more great matches eh?

finally, after so long mom agreed to get me a new guit last friday. yeah i got an FX 310 electric acoustic guit. came along with a mini amp. sweet. just a little something to keep me occuppied this study season. and boy, am i counting down to christmas =) 61 days to be exact. but then again, its 14 days to Os... sighh.

i just added a number of links, so feel free to check them out.

chill.

rainy sunday

its a sunday and looking out my window, its been pouring since morning. wahh, what a perfect day to spend the rest of it sleeping haha. dad left for europe this morning so the house will be peaceful for sometime. haha, no i dont mean in a bad way but just that he enjoys irritating us when hes at home. haha. and yes, speaking of that, he woke us up at 4 this morning to tell us the hamsters were missing! and made my bro and i to find them! so far we only found 4 out of 6 :( oh well, like my bro said, stupid hamsters. got food and water provided they wana run away and go find the pussycat. if knew they wanted to run away should have sold them off and make some money earlier. ggrrr...

so school holidays have started. okok, or rather, STUDY LEAVE. no plans at the moment, except just to mug, mug and mug. sighh. looking on the bright side, i can get more sleep! wahaha. yeahh and thanks to someone's influence im now hooked onto korean movies and music. nolah dont get the wrong idea i dont watch them cause of the cute korean guys that many girls would claim are. (cause i know im still the cutest :] ) but ok lah, some story lines are nice, though most of it ends with someone dying. but im a sadist remember? heh heh.

ok, i'm tired of studying. going back to bed for now.

chill.

farewell fairfield

yeah, school's offically ended for me yesterday. i must say that yesterday was one of the most fun yet saddest day... well ok, simply to put it, it was memorable. though unexpectedly somethings happened, but nonetheless im sure as a class we enjoyed the little sing along session led by loke right? thanks for that moment guys, i'll never forget it :) hmm, i never expected it to be that emotional nor would i break down, but eventually i did. anyways, i just wana say a really BIG thank you to all those who have made my 10years in fairfield so special and meaningful, you know who you are. especially my pals of sec 1F, 2D, 3C and 4C, thanks for adding all the crappiness and lameness into everyday lessons. you sure made them fun. and of course those being ever ready to help me with my work, problems and influencing me positively, again you guys know who you are, im truely grateful for having you around :) well... so the list just goes on and on...

do remember our 4C reunion in 10 years time! yeahh, we'll bring our kids, husbands and wives along! hahaha. God bless, until we meet again.

for you :)

might be quite a long clip... but i think its rather touching. enjoy!

[ blank. ]

once again the weekends are here. well that simply means the Os are drawing closer! that can be a good or bad thing too lar yah. somehow i feel my biological clock is now upset cause of the crazy marathons the past nights but, oh wells... we did survive. haha.

this week is gonna be the last week of school. yeah as in the ' lastest last' before we all break off and only see each other during the actual Os. wahh. how time flies. 10 years in fairfield comes to an end. im starting to miss everything there is in school. the redcross room (used to be my hostel before the sec3s took over and messed it up haha) ... the pa sound room (where i get my extra naps)... the nasi lemak, the tuesdays hor fan... and how can i forget, MISS ELAINE LIM. wahaha. and yes lah, everyone including YOU reading this now :)

sometimes the thought of how fast life moves really scares me. so much to do, so little time... and somethings are just beyond our control... sighh.

[ attack of the ikan bilis ]

its late into the night and its pouring outside. sounds like an ideal time to sleep, but unfortunately that's not gonna happen. damn, still stuck with a paper of amaths to go before i knock off. spending tonight at macs for another marathon with kevin. we stopped at 6am the previous time, so lets hope we can study till 10am this time. ha ha ha.

i ate nasi lemak for recess yesterday and guess what happened. an ikan bilis pierced the top of my gums and it got stuck there! duhh it hurt damn bad. it was only much later that i got it removed. wahh, now i can feel a hole there.

[ the road to war ]

ok, have actually worked out a 'timetable' and a list of work to be done each day if im gonna complete my revision before the 0s. 2 past yr papers of amaths, 1 tys chapter of emaths and 3 tys chapters of physics a day! started since monday and wahh... it shagged the brains out of me. damn.. 30 more days. MUST PERSEVERE!

my teacher said this to us today, "for afew of you (she reads out abt 5 names), you should be getting your A1s, the second bunch of you (she reads abt 10 names), you should really work harder to get your As. as for the rest of you, make sure you aim to pass."

hmmm, is it just me or is it that our teacher doesn't believe in us? boy... whatever it is, im more than determine to challenge her now. HELL YEAH.

[ back... ]

wah, never realised its been such a long time since the last entry.

well for once, the prelims are over. results were crap. ok, i mean really crap like you've never seen before. enough of being depressed over them. its time to move on and really chiong towards the Os now. 1 month + afew days then i'll be free! muahaha.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

especially to

mrs ang,
mrs kwek,
mrs chng,
mrs quah,
miss ong,
miss tan,
miss wong,
miss tai,
miss sham,
mdm shi and
MR FIRHAD.

hahas. yes they are my teachers and they rock.
thanks for everything.

p.s. i know my YOs are spying on my blog. wahaha.

[ lesson learnt ]

my parents left for Shanghai last night. after such a long time they finally decided to take a good break and to visit my relatives there. so before they come back with all the cheap goods and pirated dvds, my bro and i are in charge of the house. heh heh. well im just glad they're able to get away from their endless work and go for a nice holiday together without my bro and me.

for some reason i decided to visit a flowershop (or whatever you call a shop that sells flowers). i went in, began looking around for something nice but well, you should know im the type that knows nuts about flowers. so i decided to get help from the store assistant. said i wanted to get a small bouquet for some friends. preferbly bright coloured ones. he showed me some already arranged ones in the fridge but i asked what about the others (the ones they always sold in stalks and displayed in the open). he gave a huge stare and asked me, "Are you Singaporean??" and i was thinking what the heck did i say wrong? then he told me those are usually used for cemeteries. -__-! mann... i never knew. but its a good thing i do now. if not i might have ended up buying them all as teachers' day presents. LOL. well in the end i did managed to find something that looked rather nice. not the ones for cemetries of course! but i hope the ones receving it would like it. its a gift from kevin and me.

wenfang sent me a really touching song titled 'never gone' by bsb that i cant stop listening to. though its just a simple song, its lyrics sure reaches deep down into the heart... thanks wf. cheer up okays? the unit and i need you... be strong :)

[ In Loving Memory... ]

things hasn't been going on right this entire week. first i got seriously stressed out with my studies and suffered a short "nervous breakdown". the thought of how a close friend went bonkers due to being overstressed only scares me more. but im all fine now after taking a day off from sch on thurs.

that very day a fairsian collapsed during pe and never woke up. i shun't add in the details about it cause everyone is already blogging on it. doreen was in the same cca as me, media@fairfield. though i never knew her personally, no doubt was it obvious she always had many close friends by her side and was well-liked. having received the news do sadden me much, especially to see my friends who know her well being so affected by it. what i heard from friends, she wasn't always happy due to the many problems she was facing. maybe thats why she didnt had much will to fight on. but then, her passing away made many of us think twice about life, of how fragile it is. blen and doreen's incident were classified as birth defects, but that doesnt mean the rest of us are spared. instead of feeling sad and regretful, which only time can heal, i urge you guys not only to learn, but always remember what doreen had to tell us - to live our life to the fullest. because life only come once and its so short and fragile, its a huge waste to spend it on anger, hatred and holding back the things we really wana do or say. and of course, to treasure those around us. don't wait before something happens, cause no one can tell when it will just like in the case of doreen and blen.

to my dearest redcross cadets... everything that could be done to save her had been done and no one is to be blamed. if God wants her home, we cant fight against that. consider doreen's condition, it was a miracle for her to live til this age, which goes the same for blen. they came into our lives to be a blessing, and lets pass on this blessing to those around us.

to all you out there, lets keep doreen, her family and close friends in our daily prayers.
that her family and friends be strengthen in morale and may doreen enjoy eternal life with our father in paradise.

god bless.

[ The Art of Erotic Eating ]

Aphrodisiac foods, that is, foods that are believed to increase sexual desire, have been used around the world for hundreds of years to create passion and lust. And we all know that good sex needs plenty of energy. So eat up!

Top 10 lust-inducing foods

Avocado The ancient Aztecs called it ahuacatl, which means "testicle". Ah! Thought it looked familiar! Praised by the Spanish for its ability to arouse — and swiftly banned by Catholic priests for the very same reason...

Almond This nutty little number has long been associated with passion and fertility. The scent of almond is said to excite women, and it is thus a common ingredient in soaps, lotions and the like.

Banana There's no disputing the phallic resemblance, but did you know the humble banana is packed with vitamins that are said to work wonders for our sex hormones?

Chocolate Is there any food more associated with sex and romance than chocolate? Legendary super-stud Casanova was a serious chocoholic and rumour has it, he always tucked into some before entertaining his lady friends.

Chilli Not for the faint hearted, spicy chilli is great for stimulating circulation. And all that increased blood flow only helps with your sense of arousal. So if you're in the mood for love, don't forget to spice it up!

Figs This erotic-looking, fleshy fruit is said to act as a powerful sexual stimulant. It has been revered by everyone from the Greeks to the Egyptians as a sacred food associated with fertility and love.

Mustard Another fiery foodstuff reported to increase sexual desire. In the Middle Ages mustard paste was used as a stimulant and smeared over the body, paying particular attention to the male member...

Oysters Packed with zinc, the oyster has long been associated with virility and sexual performance. Their suggestive appearance makes them a firm favourite with lovers the world over.

Pinenuts Also packed with zinc, the ancient pine nut has been used for centuries in the creation of love potions. Roman poet Ovid wrote of their arousing properties in his controversial work 'The Art of Love.'

Strawberries Strawberries, and raspberries for that matter, paired with Champagne are regarded as a powerful and seductive aphrodisiac. Known in erotic literature as "fruit nipples", these tasty morsels are the sexiest fruit around.

For the ultimate in sexy eating, try a blindfolded picnic. Blindfold your partner then choose a morsel of exotic food to have them sample. Tease them with the food while you feed it to them — will it be salty, spicy, sweet? Use your fingers. Watch their reactions as they devour each titbit with pleasure.

A word of caution though, choose your picnic location wisely, with all this sexy food, things could get a little out of control... So unless you are an exhibitionist, you might feel more comfortable closer to home.

[ females again... ]

my hamsters gave birth to three this morning. by the time i realised, the pups were all ripped apart and left on the hamster wheel. none survived. damnn, i just lost my appetite to consume anything.

sighh... why must females be such ferocious creatures? males beware...

[ The Maid ]

caught the movie, The Maid with some RC friends today. its hardly that the 8 generations get to go out together. so... the movie's basically about the chinese beliefs and supersitions on the 7th month, from a philippino maid's point of view. having the movie produced in singapore and about singapore, it easy to relate to the story, thus making it scarier during some scenes. so much so that fiona ghui cried on the way home! wahahas.

said she could imagine everything coming to life. well who knows, maybe... she did saw something we didn't? afterall the seven month has not ended...

[ Be Warned ]

if you haven't been reading the news, heres something you should be aware of.

"THREE men aged 16 to 22 were arrested at their homes yesterday for distributing 20,000 pirated digital music files using a program designed to share files over the Internet.This is the first time police have targeted home Internet users who distribute digital music but do not try to profit from it... offenders could be fined or JAILED."

so... finally the police decided to go hard on such users. speak about scapegoats. rather unfair for the three to get arrested to use as scapegoats while probably 1/4 the population in singapore continues downloading mp3s huh.

nonetheless, i got my mp3 peer to peer softwares deleted already, and i really urge you guys to do so. get the cd if you have to. its not worth getting a criminal record, not to mention being put behind bars over such stuff.

to kevin, stop all the porn download ehh. don't wana see you behind bars.

chill.

[ sarcasm? ]

english orals was conducted yesterday, with the main topic on Teachers. got so carried away at one point that i said, "some teachers are really unreasonable!" forgetting that the examiners were teachers too. *glups* to cover up i said, "opps sorry i don't mean you :)" hahas ok i know that sounded rather sarcastic. they laughed and i sure hope that doesn't mean a penalization for me. -___-

going to school now seems more like tuition, with all the many chem and chinese periods taken off my timetable and replaced by free periods. its a pity they're not the last periods. imagine friday... i'll be going home at 10.45am. wahaha.

was at jurong point yesterday looking for some gifts. an alarm sounded and an annoucement was made, "this is an emergency situation. all occupants and shoppers are to evacuate the building immediately" wahh... thought it was rather exciting. hahas. but anyways another annoucement was made saying it was only a false alarm lah. cheyy...

[ whats wrong with being a teacher? ]

time is moving real fast... in a matter of days i'll be typing "prelims are tomorrow..." damn, i seriously need to get all hyped up for studying now.

had a conversation with my dad over dinner just now. he asked what i wana be when i grow up and i answered, "a teacher". his expression changed. said he was shocked and i had just shattered his dreams...

hmm...

[ Release of O MT result ]

chinese results were released yesterday. i... PASSED! PRAISE GOD! wahahas. :) though its only a pass, im glad. considering the fact my chinese has never been good. its a miracle i got a merit for orals! heh, thats unbelievable...

well i have no intentions of retaking the nov one. afterall i don't plan to use MT as one of my L1R4 subjects. so... yeah. guess thats the last of studying chinese for me. heh heh.

thanks for all the prayers and encouragement from you guys! :)

[ getting impatient ]


i like this!!! :)

hmm... been waiting for the past 10min for photobucket to upload my pics... and its still loading. grr... im getting impatient. prelims are just 4 weeks away and so looking forward to it. chinese results will be out tomorrow and... ok, im nervous. (who isn't?) but then again, i felt i've done my best and left the rest to god. whatever the results tomorrow, im seeing it as a positive one. but nonetheless, please pray for us yah :) im hoping not to retake the papers.

was doing some polytechnic surfing just now and glad to know ngee ann offers courses on biomedical engineering - just what i wanted. well now it all depends how hard im willing to work for it. anyone interested to join me? :) hah. btw, do you know the GV citibank gold class threatre at great world city screens charlie and the chocolate factory and the audience is able to smell the scent of chocolate and watch the movie? lol interesting...

ok photos are uploaded. like finally...


jungle discovery ride


jeremy, tian and the sniper


inside the bronix


junqi and elizabeth!


mr lee


macho simon


balloon?


ian!


the rest of the photos will be uploaded on the school portal. if you have any you wish to share you can send them to me to upload. chill.

[ 4Oth National Day ]

was at the carnival@marina on monday with the school. went around collecting posters, taking photos and seeing the usual army vehicles and equipment. its amusing how the government entertain the little ones by having such army road shows...getting to sit on the tanks, ships and trucks as rides and getting the soilders to act as entertainers, guides and those that drive past in their fire engines and start waving at you. hahas. no disneyland here? not a problem. we got armyland! ;)

the layout was huge and 3hours wasn't enough time to cover everything. considering the rain delayed most of the "rides and attractions" something caught our eyes and we couldnt resist but spend the rest of our time we had on it - TABLE SOCCER! lol. so much for national education.
despite the horrible weather being hot and humid, we had great fun there.

since my parents were on holidays too yesterday, we decided to see showflats around the west. guess we're too used to the west already. shifting to the east would be like migrating to a foreign land for us. my father particularly liked the idea of buying two 2-room units side by side in a condo. my bro and i staying in one while my parents next door. said it could be alot easier for us in the future that way. if my bro decided to get married and shift out or take over the house, then i could move back in with my parents, or me vice versa. hahas... i dunno, but my bro and i wasn't keen on the idea. afterall all the 2 room units at lake holmz were sold out and so it looks like that isn't gonna be the case. my father wasn't impressed with any of the houses we saw... so i guess we have no plans to shift for the time being at least until we can find one at pleases him.

managed to catch the fireworks display at jurong east from my house. seemed more like a forest fire though. hahas. well it was nice, but seriously the i think the best way to experience NDP, is to be a part of it. as in taking part in the parade or performances and stuff. was surprising that the camera crew focused quite alot on the supporting contingents especially red cross as compared to previous years.

oyes. before i forget, HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL!

and finally... the photos. enjoy! ;)


enshao, brandon and me @ the padang!


"made in Singapore"


red lions


red cross!


view of the parade


spot the error?


state flag fly past


boat?


spectacular lights


fireworks!


more fireworks!


even more fireworks!


er... hah?


us chionging out of the padang to avoid the crowds

[ Underwear? ]

got to spend the sunday with my aunt and female cousins before they fly back to shanghai tomorrow. they migrated there about 2 years ago and come back to singapore for holidays only twice a year. so each time i see my 2 cousins.... well they grow quite alot. they went shopping and so i tagged along. afterall i couldn't stay put in the house any longer.

and... BOY, THAT WAS ONE SHOPPING TRIP! after all these years of going out and shopping with my mother I CAN NEVER NEVER UNDERSTAND whats going on in womens mind when they shop! tell them to get some thing you need and they spend hours looking at things all over the place which many of those they dont need. hah okok i shan't add a long list of things women do if not i know i'll see my tagboard getting spammed by them. -_-" anyways, they (my aunt and cousins) then spent easily an hour looking and trying on women's underwear, which again i don't know if they bought any. i waited outside the shop caused i never liked entering stores that purely sell women's products and my aunt called me in and gave me afew tips on choosing underwear for a woman. says it will be useful information for me in the future. wahaha. well... of course me being innocent, i couldnt really be bothered lar.

while im typing this entry i guess they must be packing their luagguages getting ready to leave for the airport. take care little ones, we'll miss you! enjoy using those bra you bought! hahas.

[ Stuck at Home ]

havent been out of the house since thursday and im begining to feel bored being stuck at home for 3 days already. the cough medicine's making me drowsy so i've been sleeping alot. hahas. missed out on cadets' recognition day today. heard it didnt turn out as good as expected, but its alright cause news received were that all our 5 fairsians passed ULP! CONGRATS! just as they are happy for passing, so am i for the 4 days of holidays ahead. err... did i say holiday? seems to be a study leave more like it. -__- yeahh, besides chillin out with a few friends on monday, its back to rot with my books at home on tuesday and wed.

been pondering over this quote from mr chia lately, "sometimes in life, there are no U-turns..."

cheers.

[ Christianity ]

was flipping through yesterdays papers this afternoon and yes, the big headlines did caught my attention. "Toronto Airbus crash, all 309 passengers and crew survived" wow, all 309 including a nine month old child actually emerged from the flames alived. say whatever they have to about the efficiency of the crew and plane etc, to me its one magnificiant miracle and a test from god.

frankly speaking, there are times when i do question my faith, - catholicism, certain practises and all. i don't doubt it, but im hoping to find some answers. from traditional strict rules, christinity has become a big joke. well catholicism is part of the christinity faith, and i do consider myself a christian. maybe im just used to the traditional mass of praise and worship to him and of thanksgiving in a proper church environment, but i dont' quite understand how an auditorium or a concert hall smacked right in a middle of a shopping centre can be called a church? i attended one such service some time ago with a few friends, which venue i would rather keep confidental. the worship leader was leading in prayer and tuning his guitar at the same time -_-. i mean... shouldn't we be meditating and focusing on god when we're speaking to him?? when i asked friends what does recieving communion mean to them, they couldn't really answer. well, that only shows our attitude. just following the crowd without knowing the true meaning of it. don't get the wrong idea, im not critisizing protestants' belief, but i feel many christians out there are being very "cosmetic" and taking god for granted which even a majority of catholics are.

recently i remembered hearing an advertisement on radio about this "supposedly praise and worship event" called Sonic Feast. it said, "come join us for the biggest outdoor live entertainment ever!" you might have heard of the newly released pop album "Shout" by pop rockers and today's christian songs artise, including Darlene Zschech a pastor at hillsongs church sydney and others more. not only that, there were huge crowds eagger to attend one of the services when a famous singer was invited there to preech. when there was'nt one, the number of people attending its service just fell back down.

to conclude - people are seeing christinity as a form of entertainment that appeals to themselves. choosing which church they want to go to, preferbly one with good music, good interior, great events, but forgetting its sole purpose, our which to worship and praise god whole heartedly... not to mention, using god's name or if you would like to call it, the focus on him to make a profit of money from t-shirts, audio cds, dvds, etc. if its for charity maybe thats fine. but the thing is that it goes into their pockets. the whole faith and belief is fading... yet, its only us who can save it. prayy... amen.

[ bored... ]

ok, i have to apologise for the pervious entry. been rather moody these few days. cant explain why either. but im really sorry if i did express any of it especially to those who talked to me online. anyways, decided to put the bad stuff behind me and look ahead. not to worry, im alright now. feeling as joyful as a carebear would be! :)

on mc today. yeahh for the 3rd time in the past 3 weeks. owells. i should be getting more sleep. the new skin was just a matter of keeping me occupied. i quite like it. simple and cute, just like me! ;) well, comments are mostly appreciated. as in on the new layout, not me being cute. hahas, i know i am.

some people's character are really weird till the extent they become extremely annoying. they try to escape reality again and again, blaming each of their failures on others and thinking they're the almighty ones, just to console themselves. as the saying goes, sometimes when you think the world has turn its back on you, take a look around. you might be the one who has turned your back on it. well these people seriously need a tell-off in their face. fcuk it.

bigger eye bags, lesser attention span during lessons, easily getting lethargic and agitated are all just begining starting to show up on me. hmm increasing stress level maybe? sighh. the only thing that seems to revolve around my friends and i is the word STUDY. and when it gets so caught up in us that we forget about everything around us... and sometimes even God, then that totally sucks.
gosh, im so looking forward to O levels. and once it passes i'll be as carefree as a carebear!

today's chapel was on the topic BLOG. fine, i might be half asleep, but i dont quite understand what the heck does blog have to do with chapel? couldnt even find any link between the topic and the verses she gave. seems like they were all just "thrown in" to make it seem like a christian sermon. why not just make it easier for everyone and call it a lifeskill lesson? i feel that the school and chapel is starting to lose its christian meaning, especially when you have christian ministry staff who backstab you. well i might be wrong, but its just an opinion.

visited the doc today to get a checkup on my neck. been feeling a shap pain from my neck leading to my arm and back over the past 2 days til i could hardly turn my head. doc said my nerves could be injured due to overexerting myself when lifting weights. well hope it heals soon if not i might have to go for an X-ray. >.< so glad its finally the weekends! damnn... this week totally sucked. as though tuition from monday to thursday wasn't bad enough, we were called in for PA duty thrice this week to provide the equipment for the various rehearsals. and if that wasn't bad enough, we had mock exams! grrr... ok, i need a good break! hmm... the schools been spending lots of money lately, yes i mean LOTS. if you think the giant posters, boards and plaques around the school costed a bomb, wait til you see e new pa equipment in the backstage and sound room of the hall, ok fine i meant CHEN SU LAN hall happy? wireless mics at 600bucks per piece, the new sound mixer at 15,000 and the 1500x projector that is able to project light 50m away costing no less than 60 000 bucks! i gotta admit thats the most ex toy i'll be laying my hands on for tmr's service. so where did all our money go to? now we know. the plaques outside every classroom may seem like a nice idea, but it gets pretty freaky sometimes when it says, "in loving memory of so and so..." just like the one outside the redcross room! OHHMANN THANK GOD they didnt decide to include the photo too! hah. ok, im looking forward to my 14hours sleep today. chill. :)

[tickets to NDP! ]

ugrh! im hooked onto this year's NDP theme song - reach out for the skies! managed to get away from my work last saturday and caught the NDP final rehearsal at the padang with enshao and brandon, thanks to yunxing :) the rain was pretty heavy at first but that didnt spoil our spirit and enthusiasm. we ransacked our goodie bags, pasted tattoos all over our faces, waved our flags, screamed and cheered our lungs out as though we were the only ones there. hah, well of course we recieved stares from those around us but seriously who cares, its a parade!! thank goodness the rain stopped soon after. not course we were getting cold or wet but rather cause people infront of us were sheltering themselves with their umbrellas, not knowing that its blocking our view! grrr... but anyways, we got tired of screaming and decided to just sit and enjoy the rest of the parade. ok one thing that really shocked us was how singaporeans behaved. buns were given out by the officials and the audience were literally throwing it across the sectors! WADDE.. -___-" i guess NDP this year wasnt that good as compared to last year, other than it being held at the padang. but then again, you'll know its all worth while sitting there under the rain and getting hit by buns when you see the fireworks. yeahh beautiful stuff there. managed to take some snapshots and just as typical singaporeans are, we rushed out of the stadium before the parade ended to avoid the massive crowd and jams. got to hq to fetch the little ones and came home all shagged. will upload the pics for you guys once i get them transferred. chill!

i just read something i told myself i wasn't going to. im feeling so confused now...

sighh...

seriously, what is love?

[ Start of a new Begining ]

our long awaited farewell party was held last friday. long awaited not because we couldn't wait to leave the unit, but rather excited to see what our juniors had installed for us. for a start, dinner was... wow i dont know how to describe it. but it was totally unexpected and indeed an awesome surprise. something i never thought of, and the food was good too. (: right after was the performances which were so heartwarming that moved me to tears that i had no intention to... but i did. then followed by the ncos' speeches, prize giving and ending off with a last parade.

thank you juniors for puting sooo much effort to make the night such a special and meaningful one for all of us. i wasn't blind to see that it sure took up alot of your time from dressing up, to the planning, the rehearsals and performances, the decoration to the gifts... but most importantly, thank you for being a part of my life here in fmssrcy. good or bad, happy or sad, its you who made me the person i've become today. life would be so different without you guys. wo ai ni men! :)

not forgetting my fellow ncos, thanks for being ever so cooperative and tolerant towards one another especially me. again, the only reason i didn't screw up every event was cause you were always there backing me up all the way... you're the best! thank you! (:

now that a chapter has ended, its a start of a new. things will be different, personalities will change... its hard to accept the fact my time is over, its painful to leave. but i have to... theres no point looking back regretting about the things i could have done but didnt. instead, its better to have the good memories to cherish and to look ahead into my future. the unit may be disbanded or broken anytime... but its in each one of us, that the true spirit of the unit lies in. as long as we're together, we'll always be one. and the one place that will forever remain in my heart, FMSSRCY. all the way!

[ Where did all that money go? ]

today's news headlines - "NKF withdraws defamation suits against SPH and journalist."

NKF's CEO earns income of 20k a month with annual bonus of 11-12months. owns a bathroom with a pricely german toilet bowl and gold plated tap. drives a Mercs, road tax, maintenance and repair paid by NKF. flies first class also paid by NKF. wahh this kind of job i also want sehh.

guess where all that money came from? YES OUR POCKETS when we donate to those nkf charity shows! SHHEESSHH...

well i'm just glad my chinese orals are over. if not who knows that topic might come out for nuts. heh.

uurrghh im having stomach ache and diarrhoea >.<

another weekend has passed. while the NDP people have been enjoying themselves at the padang i was freezing my butt of at the library on sat and sun. didnt managed to study that much due to a bad flu, but thankfully i'm alright now. so during this whole period of chionging, its hard not to think about our future plans... results, which poly or jc, courses available, NS, uni... etc, etc. for me, guess i have already sort out the path i wana take... but its gonna be hard though. im not having a really good feeling about chinese Os right now. to retake or not to, thats the question. come to think of it, i dont really need it as im planning to get into a poly. haha but then again, class pressure lah. ok, its getting rather "late" and i should be off to bed. gonna try jogging and working out at 5.15am in the morning before heading to school, hopefully i can pay better attention during lessons instead of being half dead. HEY NDP CADETS I WANT MY NDP PREVIEW TICKETS!!! =)

yay ORD this friday loh!

4C TAOPOK!



CLASS TEE



4C



GUYS IN GREEN

feels great to be up and back in school after a good long break. for now, its gonna be full steam ahead to O levels. for a start things are going fine, except for chinese orals of course, but i shun't go into its details. afterall, its over! hell yeah. ok, well recently i discovered a place which is really condusive and neat to study- JE library. haha so now you know where ive been rushing to everyday after school. most of my classmates would say the only reason i'll go there is to see the chicks but hahas nah, im studying lar ok. on a challenge to complete 200h of studies in six weeks :) somehow i suddenly find studying fun! haha and yes, so does chinese. i guess i've come to realise i need more time for self study and revision instead of tuitions and other lessons. so... yeah, guess things are gonna be like that for the next four months.

so london won the olympic bid, not much a surprise about that. but never did we expect it to become a next terrorist target. its saddening to see the number of deaths and destructions on the headlines of newspapers everyday. yes, and i mean everyday. is this gonna be another one of god's prophecies, we wont know. but still, do pray people! prayers changes things. believe it.

best wishes to those taking their oral exams next week and to you fellow muggers, jia you!

[ Bro's Bday out ]


the esplanade bettle



view from esplanade walk



chinooks flypast






great coordination






F16s doing their bomb burst









spectacular view of singapore



sneak peak into NDP05



tank



more tanks



ambulance


cool pics eh. was out today celebrating my bros birthday with afew friends. was pretty grumpy in the morning due to the lack of sleep caused by yuan hao the night before. ha ha ha. got woken up by a call from a junior telling us 2 of our team mates couldnt make it for today's CAC due to stomach cramps and fever and that caused the rest to be penalized. how true if they're unwell i won't know. but then again, im utterly disappointed for such a thing to happen... for me, even with a fever i still made it for ndp training. cac's... well, its indoor, no sun, aircon... sigh, i cant expect too much i guess. anyways, though we lost, i still thought our teams did a marvelous job preparing and presenting, so a big congrats! :) afterall, its fmssrcy first year in this CAC.

had steam boat at hotel royal for lunch which caused a BIG hole in my wallet. glad i still had some time after that to make my way down to the CAC to check out on our teams before meeting up again with the gang at marina square to catch a movie. hey, marina square's awesome after the renovation there. cool place to chill, especially Centre Stage. ;) got a chance to preview this year's NDP at the padang. hanged about for awhile at esplanade walk to view the 21gun salute and the overhead flypasts (aawweessoommeee) before finding a place to have dinner. this year's NDP's so gonna rock. unlike last year's boring one. hah, its a good thing we didnt drive our parents car as the whole damn place was blocked up for the tanks and other vehicles to pass. hmmm, after seeing the endless lines of tanks and other armoured personels, could imagine how singapore would look like during a war... planes roaring above... tanks on the ground... we hiding in underground mrt stations... unbearable blasts... the westin stamford falling to the ground. wooahh.

[ Can't sleep! ]

alright its almost 4 in the morning but i still cant fall asleep! uurrgghh. just completed watching 2 of the 4 vcds i rented yesterday. american pie the weddings a good show. crude, uncencored, humour... = absolutely worth watching! :) looking forward to a friend's dance performance at kallang threatre tonight. after that yuan hao and kevin's sleeping over again. haha well yuan hao claims he needs to use my com for his history project but i bet he just wans to blog lar. crazy fellow. so do visit his updated blog tonight! (boy, its gonna be another looonngg entry... ) oh yes, how interesting... i realised theres a baby lizard hanging around in my toilet the past few days. it never fails to be on the shower door whenever i wana take a bath. cute little bugger. afterall it helps eat up all the flies there for me so i shan't kill it.

guess what i found on the school portal, more homework!!! grrr... its surprising to know i've finished more assignments than most of my classmates (hahas, not that im trying to boast, but you should know that a slacker like me getting my work done faster than others... hah thats amazing.) but anyways, incase YOU out there dont know, theres an A and E maths mock exam during the first 2 weeks of the new term. not forgetting theres cheena oral and listening, which happens to fall on the same day as our farewell "camp" and POP. sian. ok larh, better get some sleep already.

happy holidays!

[ last week of school holidays ]

5 days left and its back to school! how exciting. looking back, the first two weeks were spent entirely on rc activities. the remaining two... well tried studying, but ended up slacking most of the time. :( got to spend abit more time with my family during the weekends. dinning out, and attended the pck musical last sat. it wasnt too bad lar. cant expect much when your seats' the cheapest and its all the way back. haha, it was entertaining though, but then again alots been on my mind lately... from the pile of homework i have left, deciding the next unit's committee, the results of chinese Os, experiencing the stress of the approaching prelims and Os... to even worrying about what jobs are gonna be available for me in the near future. not paranoid lar ok. so much for sec4 life. one thing's for sure, NO MORE RC AFFAIRS for me! well i hafta admit i am glad about it this time. haha cant believe im saying that. i guess i've been really drained out after the camp and a long rest will be good for me before i continue as a vi next year. but whether i would be able to come back to my unit would be another issue... haha but dont get the wrong idea, MY PASSION WILL NEVER DIE OUT SO EASILY... ;) time flies really fast huh. 3 more months to prelims, 5 to Os, then 6 months freedom! woohoo!

after one year of procestination i've finally got my desktop set up in my room, hoping it'll be of better use. installed a sound surround system and tv tuner to it with e lcd mounted to the wall, hah i think i wana lock myself up in my room for the rest of the week. YOs treated us to swensens earthquake just now while mr firhad is enjoying himself away with his girlfriend in KL. wahh, not bad seh, we got school holidays teachers also got. this type of job i also want leh. been chionging amaths for 6 hours today (5 chapters to go damn...) and can hardly open my eyes now... so off to sleep! chill.

[ Something interesting... ]

came across this post while surfing Friendster. haha, dont get offended though, just something to laugh at. =)

"Friendster has been chewed up and spit out like bad bacon by Singaporeans. Why? The bad use of English, the act of retardedism and most importantly, the disgusting and unfathomable pictures of you guys acting cute.

Puffing up your cheeks DOES NOT make you look cute. It just emphasises on how you're trying to hold back a burp. You look like a pufferfish. A moronic pufferfish.

Taking a shot from the top is alright, but do not ever open your eyes super wide and act cute. Never. It freaks people out, gives hentai lovers a description of how you're begging to get your face sprayed all over with cum. Oh yeah, you look likea dog too. My dog. So bark?

DO NOT EVER DO HAND GESTURES. It just symbolises on your stupidity and how you are trying so hard to speak 'Retard' in sign language. euu; miie; blahblahblahinserthereenlongatedword. They are creative, so to speak, but when you write compositions, you don't spell them like that, do you? I'd rather you take the time to spell every word correctly and leave a good impression on foreigners, than leave your dimwit-slime all over.

Get your grammar and vocabulary right. "Love hurts", not "Love hurt".

What is up with the how "moii" thing? Moi is afrench word - stop abusing that word, lest the french invade. Do you actually use that word in your real life conversations? Do you know how to pronounce it? And if you do, it's not "mu-oi".It's "muah", you moron.

I merely want you all to change for the better of not only the country, but for your own sake too. But hey, read on. Whoever doesn't sign admits the fact that he/shehas condemned himself or herself to my list of so-to-speak dumb pricks and/or crackheads. Inducing on that fact, you are also welcome to my full list of insults, garbage and junk.If I have offended any of you, you are a loser as you are easily agitated by just an internet mail.To my friends: If you do type/act like the above, please try to change. I'm not forcing, just requesting. If not, meh."

haha so what do you think?

[ Home Alone ]

spent the last few days working out, catching up with maths, doing the housework and cooking (surprising eh?) well thats cause my maid still isnt back. tried out afew new dishes but hah my mom and bro would never try any of them. went to west coast park yesterday for a PA gathering BBQ. wahh plenty of food to eat, which only forced me to go jogging this afternoon. got entertained by the rest's latest gossips and critisms (harmless ones larh yah). then we came across the topic about "kids" yes kids. ever wondered how much a kid can make an impact on lives... used to have a teacher who was a sadist and rides a bike to school. after having his first kid, hah well the bike was replaced with a family car and... he SEEMDED a nicer person. hahas. even changed school cause he wanted to be nearer to home. wondered what i'll be like with kids. but owell thats a long road ahead. for now, at least with redcross out of my mind, i do wish to spend more time with god, my family and studies. was watching globe trekkers on tv and found out that the outbacks of taipei is just as attractive as Australia! para-gliding, hiking, set raises/sets among the moutains, food... urgh, so dying to go there! anyone interested? heehee. damn, which bastard is sick enough to chop up a body, pack them into nice boxes and leave them along the kallang river... imagine wakeboarding and suddenly a head flops up onto your board. arrghh! gross. hope they'll find the one responsible for this soon.

btw, i just uploaded 2 new ablums to imagestation's pic gallery. so do visit them when you're free! thanks.

[ training camp pics ]

hey guys, just managed to upload some pics from the training camp. will upload more when i have the time. meanwhile, enjoy!

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2125283828

p.s. for those who are not members, you gotta sign up first to view e pics.

[ Back from camp ]

just got home from camp and really shagged, but a feeling of great satisfaction. a total of 6 hours of sleep in 3 nights, limited food and tremendous amount of physical training was indeed a challenge. but again, nothings impossible. for the first time i did not get entirely involved in every matter of the camp. not that i wished to slack, but cause i felt i have done enough and should give my fellow ncos and sec3s a chance to run this camp. and indeed they sure did a good job in organizing and managing it. though training may be extremely tough to some, i hope that the cadets will understand that only when one pushes him/her self to the limits, will one see him/herself raising as a leader; doing things that were once thought impossible, such as the 10km hike, survival cooking and pushing our bodies over the boundaries despite the little rest we got. i expect to hear much complains from parents very soon, but so be it. its sad to know how parents these days pamper their kids so much that many dont get a chance to get themselves out of the comfort zone and challenge themselves to overcome greater obstacles. the worst thing we can do is to please others and compromise training for welfare. as what vincent sir would say. "how can we expect trees to grow if we were to always keep them under shelter?" what greater joy could an instructor have than to see our juniors becoming greater leaders than us, achieving more and doing things better than we did. though ironically old masters in ancient china wouldnt pass all of their skills to their apprentice in fear that they might one day surpass them. hence, after centuries of such mentality, valuable skills are lost; the will to explore new frontiers dies off. for me, this camp was a really meaningful one. not only did i see my juniors taking on leadership roles and instilling in themselves better discipline, but i've discovered something more for myself. if the rest had notice, i was doing much of the upfront leading on the first day. while getting down to cook, clean, helping out with the fnb and serving the rest on the second, therefore furfilling the motto of the SWO, "TO LEAD AND TO SERVE." after 2 whole weeks of intense meetings, plannings, recces and of course the camp itself, it finally comes to an end. after 4yrs of cadet life and a yr of being a nco, my job is done. though my job may be done, but never my duty.

last but not least, thanks to all the ncos especially the fnb team, VIs, WOTs and not forgetting the cadets for their part in making this camp a splendid success! you rock!

[ Starwars mania ]

visited toys r us with hidayat and enshao yesterday. went there hoping to get one of those star wars light sabers. came accross this basic one which cost 24 bucks, but there wasnt any light in it. there was the other one we were looking for which was quite long and comes with light and sound (wow how exciting!). it costs 69bucks and too bad there was only one left :( ... so we decided not to buy it. just admit it larh all of us still has that kid in us and we gotta let him out to play sometimes. ha ha.

my father left for europe and my maid went back home and wont be back til end of this month. aww, its a pity my mom didnt go along with my dad. then my bro will be staying in his camp and i'll have the whole house to myself!

finally went for a swim and to the gym today after all the busy schedule i've been having for the past one month. must train up then i can tekan the campers with PT next week! muahaha. yes i know you're thinking that i look much fatter now. cant help it lar, i just kept feeling hungry while studying for chinese Os. but hopefully i'll lose quite some weight after this week of camps. haha. anyways, will be away from tuesday to saturday. oyes, ex fmssrcy cadets please take note that you're invited for our campfire this friday 7pm so please try to come!

[ guidelines for a new president?? ]

thank god its friday! what a week... sleepless nights, taxi rides, staring at my com and typing, going for meetings, aops... finally managed to complete my proposal, though theres small stuff here and there to add in during the next few days. got kevin and yuanhao to stay over at my place on tuesday to complete our proposals throughout the entire night, or rather morning. well, after the hardcore planning and recceing, whats left is to brush up on my "sadistcity"!

if you've been reading the papers you'll come accross this article about the guidelines for a new singaporean president. it states that you gotta be some chairman or CEO for at least three years in a company and blah blah... damn, there goes my chance. imagine me as your president. i'll legalise pirated vcds and dvds. does chairman of fmssrcy count anyways? LOL. i'll be working towards being a humanities teacher (the next steve ow) and YO of fmssrcy. then i'll rock the unit with nothing but corporal punishment and PT. hmmm i like the thought of that! ha ha ha.

[ deaf and mute? ]

hiked a total of about 12km today doing our recce for our training camp to be held next thursday. haha i shouldn't say the locations incase my juniors were to see =p. its really exhausting when you don't get enough sleep the night before and made to exert your body the next... well though it was extremely exhausting, we sure had our share of fun. discovered quite afew cool and romantic places around central singapore. the esplanade's a really nice place to visit after sun down. the ambience, music and night scenery just so rocks! especially when you have yer good friends around to talk cock with. had dinner at lao pa sat with ph sir and kev. while we were eating peacefully, a woman came up to us with a card stating that shes deaf and mute. and yeah, like you have seen before, she was selling these stuffed dolls. well, we politely turned her down. poh huat sir told us of this time an angmor guy came up to him with the same card and selling the same stuff. he walked away and poh huat sir shouted, "how much?!" guess what. he turned around and answered "five dollars!" haha so much for blind and mute. was at jurong point once and a woman came up to me selling this "robocop kinda torch" for 10bucks and saying its for charity. don't know how true it is, but some of these people actually get 70% of the money they managed to raise. what bullshit... so do make sure you know where your money's going to the next time you donate to such charities and don't get cheated!